Wednesday, March 7, 2012

we made pretzels

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Thursday, February 23, 2012

darn google chrome

I just had to download google chrome in order to post this.  I'm so tired of the ever changing technology.  it's irritating.  and bothersome.  I've been trying to post a cute picture of my niece and a funny story about ash wednesday, but I couldn't because blogger stopped working.  so if I ever wanted to blog again, I had to download chrome.  And now all my favorites are gone.  and my pintrest button.  do you know how long it's going to take me to figure out how to get that back up in my tool bar? (did you just say, 'that's what she said.'?) Anyways.  I'm done for now.  but darn I'm ticked.

Friday, February 17, 2012

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I went to visit family and failed to bring my camera out the entire time I was there.  This is becoming a pattern.  I'm not sure why.
When we came home and pulled up to the house, Finn shrieked, and then so did I.  Spring blooms.  It's here.  A bit earlier than we were expecting, but much appreciated.  And then I finally pulled out my camera.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

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The days have been beautiful. A few days ago it had rolled around to the 4 o'clock hour, and I realized I had no idea what to cook, so we went to the beach.


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John was pretty excited about "cooking his own dinner".  And they were all so good about scavenging for kindling.
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I don't think I have eaten as much junk food in I don't know how long.  There were s'mores, of course. Maybe next time, with a little more planning, we could make dinner a little healthier, and avoid the pre-bedtime sugar-crash and melt down.  But we should still have s'mores, I think.

Other than beach adventures, we just been living our ordinary days.  Home-school.  House-cleaning.  I made a new shirt.  I'm not sure what I think of it.  I keep making clothes too big.  Clearly, in my mind, I think I'm much larger than I am.  Room to grow, I guess.  And then there's the waiting we've been doing.  Where would my life be without Waiting?  I have no idea.  It's such a familiar companion.  Together so often, you would think we were 'best friends forever'.  Mostly, our wait these days is to hear from jobs.  I try to be patient.  I try to be present and give myself fully to the moment I am in.  You may think waiting a passive thing, but I assure you, it is not.  It is actively present in our thoughts and actions.  I may look as though I'm washing dishes, reading stories, or knitting, but really, I'm waiting.  I've always been a multi-tasker.  Anyways.

That just seemed a downer of a para-graph.  Silly me.  I think I'll have a decaf coffee while I wait.  And a cookie.  Now nobody minds waiting with coffee and cookies.  All is good now. 

Monday, January 23, 2012

ordinary time

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Today we had respite from the rain.  We've been battered by storms almost daily since I posted last.  So this is Winter on the Oregon coast.  I don't mind, these storms have a beauty of their own.  But when we woke this morning and the sun was out, it was like coming up for air.  We ran to the beach for two hours.  I think our lungs are full and ready for what next may come.
There's been a lot of indoor play.  Lot's of trying to be patient with each other.  Lot's of Legos.  Lot's of time in the tepee I made them for Christmas.  Lot's of crafts.  Beans on paper was last night's desperate attempt at occupying James and Finn while I cooked dinner.  I thought Finn's came out wonderfully.  He's blossoming into quite the little artist. 
I've been knitting.  I finished a little gift for a soon-to-be birthday girl I know.  And I started a sweater for myself.  I hope it turns out, as I'm winging it a bit.
So, there you go.  We've been living very ordinary days, struggling very ordinary struggles.  And I don't mind them, they have a beauty of their own.

Monday, January 16, 2012

so remember when I said...

that the weather around here lately wasn't very Winter-like? Well, somebody heard, and decided to remedy the situation.
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We had some snow, just a little, which is a bit of a rarity around here. The boys were so pleased, and I must say, so was I.  Snow is nice when your cupboards are full, you have no where to, and the fire keeps the house so toasty.   We've been reading The Long Winter as a family, so I think I've been exceptionally aware and appreciative of our ability to be warm and fed. 
Other than snow, I've been trying to get myself organized around the house.  I think, sometimes, when you live out of the way, and you know that no one is going to be stopping by, it is very easy to just let certain things go, like the kitchen, and opt to surf Pintrest for longer than I would ever publicly admit.  So I bought a new planner.  It was very, very ugly, yet very, very practical.  I sewed a cover for it.  Now it's pretty, and I'm filling it with lists, like, "clean the kitchen, do the laundry, and school with the kids", but deep down inside, I'm itching to sew something else. 
Now I feel very rambly.  Daniel is upstairs trying to finish up just a little bit more work, then we are going to watch Downton Abbey.  With a gin & tonic.  Summer in a glass.  I hope he's done soon.

Friday, January 13, 2012

drift on in, the weather's fine

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We've been having the most beautiful weather.  It doesn't feel like winter.  It doesn't feel like anything.  I like it.  I like it a lot. 

We went for a walk on the beach the other day and found a most awesome fort.  Drift wood and beach grass, sea shell decor, and even a photo of a past inhabitant? possible architect?  I plan to add our pictures too.  We've been adding to it.  John and Finn want to make it waterproof.  Dan wants to sit there and watch a storm roll it.  James want to sleep there.  I think a picnic and a campfire ought to suffice.

Merry Friday to you.

And happy birthday to Kate.